“But Mary treasured up all these things and pondered them in her heart” (Luke 2:19, New International Version, 2010)
I’ve spent a lot of time pondering these last few days since attending the Deeper Still conference–pondering how leaving the home for one day equals an extra two days of housework; pondering the meaning behind the shoebox that my daughter left on the kitchen table filled with one flip-flop, one croc, one cloth napkin, and one leg from a baby doll; and pondering why my son has so many questions about heaven that bring him to tears.
And I want to say that I’ve been pondering the challenge that the Lord gave me, but instead, I think I’m learning that I need to ponder patience. Perhaps patience is my challenge.
When Priscilla Shirer inspired me with her message on 2 Kings 13, urging us to give God what we have and allow Him the opportunity to work a miracle in that margin where we don’t have, I wanted to shout,”Yes, Lord! Work a miracle in me! I’m not going to act as King Jehoash–I’ll give you all my arrows, not holding back any!” Except I don’t know what I’m giving. I don’t know where God is calling.
I only know that I have left feeling restless, and I have had this feeling before.
I know God is working in me, causing my heart to feel emotions that I haven’t felt quite this way before, conviction in the way I live a little stronger than usual, and I have this sense that God is preparing me for something. And it’s exciting. And a little scary.
I don’t do well with not knowing, and I don’t do well with not having the words to explain my thoughts coherently (I can’t believe how long I’m taking to write this piece), yet I have to trust that, for now, God wants me to feel exactly this way.
So I will ponder, and I will treasure. As Beth Moore shared, sometimes God only gives us one piece of the puzzle, but we can trust that He’s holding all the rest in His hands. And as Mary did, we can treasure. We can protect and preserve in our mind all those moments when we have no idea what is going on, but all the same, know that they are important.
I will take my puzzle piece and store it away in a box on the shelf. And in God’s time, I’ll one day begin to see a picture.
9 thoughts on “The Treasures”
The puzzle piece is such a great word-picture as I have felt this way before, many times…holding that piece of the puzzle and thinking, "what now…"
Great post Jennifer, as always.
Have a great day.
Jen, I love this post. Lately I've been feeling much of the same things. Where it drives you to write, I've found myself pulling back…inward. My poor blog has been neglected. 🙂 God has given me a challenge too, and it's amazingly simple, but it has consumed me most days. And I feel that same restlessness. I feel like he's leading, guiding and I don't know where except I know He has asked my obedience in this one step, and not worry about where He's taking me. I love your closing line about the puzzle piece. It is such a great mental picture for me, and exactly what I needed to hear. Have a great day!! See you tomorrow night. Gonna miss seeing your face every week after we're done with FPU!!
Yes, I understand exactly what you mean! I debated whether or not to publish this post, but I wanted to make sure that I wrote in order to remember. When God shows me the next piece, I want to be able to look back and remember the restlessness I felt. See you tomorrow!
I just love the gift you have and share! You manage to write what others feel.
Psalm 37: 23 The steps of the Godly are directed by the LORD. He delights in every detail of their lives. Though they stumble, they will not fall, for the LORD HOLDS THEM BY THE HAND.
It seems the conference was wonderful and inspiring. Glad you got to go.
I don't think any of us do well with not knowing the next step God has for us. It's hard for most of us to walk by faith and not by sight in this flesh, me for sure. It could be possible that while God has only given you one piece of the puzzle, He's given your spiritual family some of the pieces of your puzzle. It looks to me from the pieces I have and some of the other readers as well, that the picture God's revealing looks suspiciously like you- writing…I'll keep reading and see if I can find anymore pieces of the puzzle!
Jennifer I love your blog!! I posted your beautiful face over on mine! So wonderful to meet you! You are a sweet spirit! Have a wonderful day!
This is beautiful. I remember talking with you about that "restless" feeling. I think that you're closer than you realize to finding the next piece of the puzzle.